A lot has been happening in my life some good some bad. I’ve had problems in my relationship, money, ex, eviction. It’s been a rough month the hardest since I moved down here. This has been coupled with good things happening comedy and work wise. I just received an offer for a new job so that my impending job end is taken care of and thus my family. I feel much better about my relationship which I won’t go into but suffice it say that that’s been the main stress for me personally although money is always a problem. I also received an initial proposition to do some paid comedy and writing which I’m happy about as well. I think it could be amazing we’ll see if there is carry through. Nothing is done or real until the contract is signed. I’ve been working out..I haven’t seen any kind of results yet but I just started. I’m also starting the paleo diet this week…well today to be exact and that is basically a diet consisting of nothing you couldn’t eat before the advent of farming. So meats, vegetables, fruits, nuts, no dairy, no added salt, no sugar, no starches. It’s basically atkins with fruit and no dairy. I’m excited about it once I’m on this the weight is going to fall off me if my previous experience has told me anything. I REALLY need this right now, I feel like shit about how I look right now and would really like to take a picture that doesn’t embarrass me. I am really trying to be positive about the future and I have all the confidence that I’m going to take care of the things in my life I need to take care of and successfully. I really don’t have the overbearing “I suck” mentality that I had in Seattle. I needed to come down here and see that I’m capable of achieving all the things I want to. I think this will be done with my family and not single, but there are no guarantees. I certainly hope they are, it doesn’t feel like it would mean as much if they weren’t part of my life like they are now.
I am doing everything I can to stay positive right now, I have the mental maturity of an 8 year old so it makes my relationships difficult at best. I’m going up pretty regularly right now, but I feel the itch to step up again and start playing some larger venues and clubs. It’s not an easy path down here at all, it takes the kind of sticktoitiveness I’ve never had to muster before in my life. LA hasn’t made things easier either, the other day I had a reuben..it was great..it was also 20 bucks for a fucking reuben. We got half a sandwich soup, a reuben, and a small mac and cheese for 52 bucks..what the fuck. I love a reuben more then just about anything in the world…and they shouldn’t cost more then 8 bucks ever…not on the moon at the only deli on the moon should a reuben cost 20 bucks. Everything down here is stupidly expensive except for booze and smokes for some reason they are priced reasonably I guess to counter act the constant stress about paying for everything else.
I’ll post more as think of things……